It’s been more than 4 days since i’ve been thought about this..3 times doing ‘istikarah’ and i got same answer..
That’s my desicion. it’s been hard for me to make this desicion but it is..hu~
this will be my first time entering boarding school and study in a school which you can say all the students are genius and briliant.
pray for my best and i hope i’d do the right choice.
The resutl for MRSM ady announced just now..i don’t put any hope for it, besides, i applied bcoz my frenz and parents told me to.
I was like checking for my friends and sort of, until I remembered i didn’t check mine yet. So i checked it and i felt like my i was out of breath.
I get it.. Feel like world is not fair, my friends cried like hell coz they didn’t get it, and me? i got it but i dunno whether i shud go or not..
I’m not a grateful person huh? My dad EXTREMELY asked me to go and my mom was like
“It’s up to u. think carefully about it. watever ur decision is, i’ll not force u.”
thankz mom, i dun’t need that word actually. kill me for saying that.. what? i’m being honest u know!
i was hoping like this..
“Don’t go, please stay here. i need u.”
Okay that’s sooooooooooo lame and mushy. but i was predicting it was like dat..so i will not go.
even though my dad asked me to.
i want to go, but at the same time, i don’t want to.
Now i really need my hard-die fandom towards DBSK.. if i was still die hard fan of them, mayb i’ll not go..
*feel like crying*
today i had my second prefect meeting. it’s not really a problem to me to have a meeting, but why should we have a meeting TODAY?
Yes, i’m asking why? we finished our school today at 3.45 pm with full of tiredness, weariness and hotness, still yet asked us to have a meeting?
That’s a lil bit too much for me. I’ve got so many things to do, like curriculum activity in the morning, those such Lk works and yet i have to stay back at school until late of evening..
>_<
u r so cruel teacher.
then i’ve got some more bad news,
all the prefect have to come early at 7.00 AM just to stay in the blocks?
so students will not enter the class before assembly..
what type of rules of that? GAH~!
i usually came to school at 7.10 and now of coz i have to come earlier..
Yet in my team, there’s one unknown junior, syafiq and k.liyana.
the major prob is k.liyana..
that annoying sacrastic girl ever in my life.
As u all know, my result for PMR is quite good. It’s not self-praising but this is sumthing that make me proud.
Behind this proudness and happiness, there’s sumthing dat bother me much. Where shud i go? What should i choose?
My mom put her high hope on me that i’ll take pure science stream instead of engineering science.
I know that it’s ady enter 3rd week of Jan and i’m still talking about this. Yeah…>_<
Like i said, my mom wants me to enter Pure science stream BUT my dad wants me to take Engineering science..
If u ask me wat i want? i’ll go for my dad’s choice, but it’s not me if i let my mom feel dissapointed.
One more thing, my oldest bro is asking me and force me to enter MRSM. He also said that if i didn’t get MRSM, i MUST apply for te second chance.
It’s not like i don’t want to go. but my mom seems doesn’t want me to enter it. and again, my dad really wants me to enter.
URGH~!
Stress grow bigger and bigger inside me. for me, what’s school is not problem for me..it’s all same to me..yeah..
I’ll just stay but i’ll just go..
this thing bothered me a lot..and made me turn a mature girl now? 
I tried thousands times to edit and create my WP acc.. blame me for my sillyness in net world. yeah, i’m not a computer freak like other s but still in learning process.
I asked my sepupu on how to manage my WP acc but UNFORTUNATELY i lost the connection while YM-ing with her yesterday.
To lala, sorry for my rudeness leaving you just like that~
>_<
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